About a year ago, a singing group from NBBI came to Lower Coverdale Baptist. While I was talking with the group, the topic of 4th Year came up. I had never considered the possibility before, but this conversation put the idea in my head. For months it was nothing more than an idea. I went online and even printed off an application, but nothing came of it.
About the end of February, Moncton Flight College (where I was working at the time) went into receivership. They were bought by another company, who let go quite a few employees. I was one of them. At this point, I was at a loss. Faced with the prospect of hunting down a job that I may or may not like, and working there indefinitely, I realized: When else am I going to have this opportunity? Right now I have no serious bills, I’m not married, and I don’t have kids. I’m basically free to do whatever I want with my life.
So, when I got thinking about what I wanted to do with my life, I decided that I really wanted to live in Europe – specifically Ireland. But I wasn’t sure how to go about it. How do you job hunt or apartment hunt somewhere you can’t get to? I’m sure it’s possible – I mean, other people have done it – but the thought scared the tar out of me! I started thinking, “How could I do this with some sort of support system behind me?” This must have been God leading my heart, because 4th Year came to mind. And I thought… why not? I could do one more year of school, get a degree (Finally, after 4 diplomas!), and hopefully live abroad.
I thought if I wanted to go to Ireland specifically, I’d have to make that happen myself. I went online to find the mission our teens at LCBC worked with last summer. I emailed them, and waited. Nothing happened. So, then I tried looking up different evangelical missions in Ireland that I could work with. But nothing seemed to come up.
At that point, I decided to get in touch with Mrs. McMahon (dean of women at NBBI) and Mr. Doherty (Theology Professor/in charge of 4th Year students). Mrs. McMahon wrote back to me encouraging me to go ahead with things, and telling me she’d pray for me. It was so encouraging! Then, Mr. Doherty called me. He was so excited that I was looking into 4th year. It suddenly felt like, “Yes! This is the right decision!” He was very positive, and we started talking about what I wanted to do and where I wanted to go. I told him about my office experience, that I’d like to go overseas, and that I wanted to do the Missions Track. I don’t think I mentioned Ireland to him then, but he may have known that’s where I wanted to go because I had told him about my failed investigations into different missions.
So time went by, and I got a job at Moncton Montessori School thanks to my wonderful friend Amanda Raybould. That job re-introduced me to working with children (it had been a few years since camp and children’s ministry at church). This, as it turned out, was providential. About the same time, I was also asked to help with the children’s ministry at LCBC.
Every week or so, I would hear from Mr. Doherty suggesting a different option he was looking into. The options varied from Coldstream Baptist here in New Brunswick to Uruguay, South America to Israel. But these options either didn’t seem to fit me or they didn’t work out. I still desperately wanted to go to the UK, and I still wanted to do the Missions Track. Finally, I realized, “God is urging me to do 4th Year. I know this. Now, I need to be open to go wherever HE wants me to go.” So, I asked God to help me follow His will for my life. I told Him I was willing to go anywhere, if that is where He was sending me. I was committing to doing my 4th Year with NBBI, no matter what. That’s when Mr. Doherty started mentioning England… and Scotland… and finally: Ireland! All of a sudden there were three or four options all in Ireland that he was looking into.
And then he called and said that it looked like one particular mission could use me. They needed someone temporarily in the office. There would also be children’s ministry, as the mission I’d be working with was Child Evangelism Fellowship. Where? Ireland. Belfast, Northern Ireland. Ireland!!!
I could not believe it. Could God’s will for my life actually be what I so desperately wanted when I started this whole process? It was in that moment that I remembered that the God I serve is a personal God. Not just some Being that I worship and pray to but only know on an intellectual level. He is right there loving me, answering the desires of my heart, and being truly, actively involved in my life. He loves me. “Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.” (Ps. 37:4) This is an elementary concept that I seemed to have forgotten somewhere along the way. But I was blindsided with that truth that day (in the best way!). I think I spent the rest of the day just giggling, squealing, jumping up and down, and other various likeminded activities. It was a good day.
After that, I started trying to wrap my head around the fact that I had volunteered to do one more year of school. I am so out of school mode! It’s been 2 years. I bought books for school, and completely intended to start my schoolwork early. Yeah, that didn’t happen. I got all of one chapter in one book read. It’s terrible… I know.
I planned on getting a job, but I started looking too late. And about the time I was offered a job, I would have had to give my two weeks’ notice at the same time I got my first pay cheque. So, I’ve been out of work for a while.
I started making lists and looking into things like plane tickets and travel visas. I had questions and uncertainties about one thing after another, and I ended up starting my visa application very late. I also just bought my plane ticket. Once I started my visa application, things felt even more complicated. The paperwork was utterly confusing, and it turned out that I needed to make an emergency trip to Halifax just this past Tuesday in order to finish my application! It was Monday, the 29th of August, and I discovered I needed fingerprints done, and there was one slot open in Halifax (a mobile clinic only open 2 days a month) for the next day. There is no arguing that this was a God thing. If I hadn’t gotten this appointment, would have had to either fly to Ontario or wait a month. Again I was amazed at God’s opening the doors for me. I shouldn’t have been surprised, yet I was. Mom, Aunt Tracey and I drove down to Halifax, and I made my appointment on time. We found it no problem, the guy was super nice (said “God Bless” on my way out), and I even ran into a friend I haven’t seen since I worked at camp years ago. The man at the clinic didn’t express any worries that my visa wouldn’t be processed on time, so I am doing my best not to give into my human nature and worry.
That night, when I got home, my friend Jessica called and invited me and mom over for a movie. I agreed, since my friend Ashley had cancelled on me (which I thought was odd because it was our last chance to hang out before I left!). So Mom and I head over, and when I get there, I discover it’s a surprise party for ME! I basically just stood staring at the room full of people for a minute before it actually clicked in! Victoria and Crystal Blakely put it all together for me. It was so sweet and so wonderful! I got to say goodbye to all of my friends (Ashley included!), before heading out. It really meant the world to me. My mom, being surprisingly sneaky, kept the secret and helped arrange things right under my nose. There was food and good friends. It was a fantastically wonderful night!
Wednesday morning I got up, thinking of the million and one things I had to do. Our trip to Halifax really cut into my getting ready schedule. It was that morning that I decided to completely trust God to keep opening the doors, and announce my plans on Facebook. I was hesitant, just because I didn’t want to have to come back a week later with a “Never mind…” It’s a pride thing I guess.
Anyway, I spent the day with Jessica, shopping and shopping and shopping. I’m completely shopped out! And she stuck with me all day. She’s a pro when it comes to shopping, so she basically kept me going. That night when I got home after a family dinner at Pizza Delight, I decided to make the necessary updates to my laptop. Make it school ready. That’s when everything I bought for my computer decided to not work. I got super frustrated, and then went to bed.
Thursday, I was supposed to leave for NBBI. I have a week of classes before heading out to Northern Ireland. I got up that morning, really early, and got ready. Then one thing after another delayed my plans. Finally about 10am, I was able to leave for the mall to get my computer things fixed up. It was a mad dash there and back. And I started downloading and uploading and whatever other loading my computer needed.
By 2pm, we were finally in the car on our way to Victoria Corner, NB. I was going to be late for my first day here! But it couldn’t be helped. At least my computer was updated properly and completely. Ready for a year of intense paper writing and email sending. Registration finished at 5pm… I got to NBBI at 5:40.
It was fine though, because I could just register the next day. The downside is that I had no sweet clue what I was supposed to be doing! I said goodbye to my mom, and she left, and I just didn’t quite know what to do with myself… for about 10 minutes. Then, I ran into some people I know, and met some of the girls in the dorm, and basically spent the rest of the night chatting away. So much for my nervousness.
That brings me to now. Dianne McFadden suggested I start a blog to keep everyone up to date on what I’m doing. I thought it was a great idea, and decided to share with you my adventure from the beginning. Up until this point, I haven’t had a chance to write anything down, but it’s probably just as well since I’m officially starting my journey now. I hope you will enjoy my chronicles, and find them somewhat entertaining. I can’t promise to be faithful to my blog, but I will do my best.
Thank you all for your encouraging words and your prayers. They are truly appreciated.
“Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times and in every way. The Lord be with all of you.” 2 Thessalonians 3:16